Last night was a hard loss. Maybe the second hardest of my career(the first being losing to the Second Line in overtime in the Ultimus a couple seasons ago). After we(Baltimore Hawks) took the Philadelphia Liberty to the woodshed last week in our season finale and cemented our comeback, and their fall from grace, to win the regular season conference title, we all felt like we could absolutely handle the Liberty in the playoffs, but in the back of my mind there was always an inkling of “what if”. What if we used our all juice in week 14, what if they catch us sleeping, what if happened man. And it sucks. I said it last night, and I will say it again, congratulations to the Philadelphia Liberty for having the right game plan and sticking it right to us Hawks.
I told the team before the game I was nervous for the first time in my career. I am not getting any younger, and with expansion on the horizon, the possibility of playing for a new team at the tail end of my career is just not something that seems appealing to me. I took this loss hard last night. I tweeted I was contemplating retirement. I ache all over. I miss my family. I slept on it, well as much sleep as I could get. Missed opportunities keep me awake for far longer than they should. Why did I miss that throw? What could I have done differently? A few people tell me not to worry about it, but it gets to me man. I feel I have let my city, my fans, my family, and most importantly, my brothers, my team man, down. It sucks. Some will say “But ‘Bino, you broke an NSFL record, you are a mvp candidate with how well you played this season.”, but to me losing in the playoffs like we, again, has fully taken it’s toll on me. I can not keep doing this. I can not keep having this hype built around this team every season only for us to fall short time and time again. So with that said, after getting buried in my thoughts all night, I Childish Gambino, am officially telling the NSFL and the Baltimore Hawks that Season fifteen will be my last official season in this league. I thought about fighting regression for a few seasons, but now with expansion and how bad my body already aches, I want to end my career as a member of the Baltimore Hawks. Much love Baltimore. You have forever changed my life for the better and I am forever grateful for the opportunity you presented me when you decided to take a flyer on me and select me in the draft. Then to have the faith in my ability and invest the time with coaches and resources to change my game to play Quarterback, I am forever grateful. I love you all.
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I told the team before the game I was nervous for the first time in my career. I am not getting any younger, and with expansion on the horizon, the possibility of playing for a new team at the tail end of my career is just not something that seems appealing to me. I took this loss hard last night. I tweeted I was contemplating retirement. I ache all over. I miss my family. I slept on it, well as much sleep as I could get. Missed opportunities keep me awake for far longer than they should. Why did I miss that throw? What could I have done differently? A few people tell me not to worry about it, but it gets to me man. I feel I have let my city, my fans, my family, and most importantly, my brothers, my team man, down. It sucks. Some will say “But ‘Bino, you broke an NSFL record, you are a mvp candidate with how well you played this season.”, but to me losing in the playoffs like we, again, has fully taken it’s toll on me. I can not keep doing this. I can not keep having this hype built around this team every season only for us to fall short time and time again. So with that said, after getting buried in my thoughts all night, I Childish Gambino, am officially telling the NSFL and the Baltimore Hawks that Season fifteen will be my last official season in this league. I thought about fighting regression for a few seasons, but now with expansion and how bad my body already aches, I want to end my career as a member of the Baltimore Hawks. Much love Baltimore. You have forever changed my life for the better and I am forever grateful for the opportunity you presented me when you decided to take a flyer on me and select me in the draft. Then to have the faith in my ability and invest the time with coaches and resources to change my game to play Quarterback, I am forever grateful. I love you all.
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