(07-18-2021, 01:30 AM)TakaMori152 Wrote:Listen, if I had my way, I would have no problem with a new account and no one knowing. But the way Oles was really trying to whitewash the history was a little upsetting. I fully believe in you as a user. I enjoyed our limited interactions as takamori.(07-18-2021, 12:56 AM)DeadlyPlayer Wrote: yeah nah, should anyone be bullied no. Did he also make multiple people uncomfortable and throw himself into the middle of drama? Yes. Does he deserve a fresh start? Not my say, but stop acting like all of it was 100% bullying.I have made every effort to say that I need to be told what I'm doing that is making people uncomfortable so I can try to work on it. I would like to try to speak to the people who I apparently offend to try to find common ground, but so far in my three years of offering this no one has actually come to me with concrete concerns. I think once Muford told me some things to work on and I've tried to do a better job at those things (being less negative, not trying to take over the conversation). Otherwise, people simply assume I get the hint, which I clearly am not good at getting. That's why I didn't want to talk to anyone anymore once I decided to become Taka. I've finally accepted how terrible I am at communication and if you want me to stop talking I will. Just allow me to defend myself at least.
And in terms of "throwing myself into drama", I truly wanted to try to be a mediator in a lot of circumstances. Or at least, I wanted to try to stand up for people that I felt needed to have someone stand up for them. I chose wrong a lot of times, defended people who weren't worth defending in the end. At some point I thought that if I helped people, I might be able to fix my reputation. But that's the thing that backfired on me.
I am overly aggressive, I am too passionate for my own good, and I am loyal to a literal fault. I understand that it might make people uncomfortable, but I don't know if I am unless someone tells me. All I've ever asked for was better communication. And all I ever got back was silence or mockery.