It’s weird for me to read through all this again. Leading up to this scandal, I loved the league. I did weekly recaps, making graphics for stand out players from every game, and eventually went on to found the Liberty, creating their branding from scratch. I had built a good reputation for myself and worked extremely hard to build one of the best teams in the league from the ground up.
When I started to question things, my love for the league waned. I had worked so hard, recruiting, scouting, sim testing, etc. And it all seemed as though the reward for my hard work would never be realized. My search for answers started from the wrong place, it started from jealousy and anger. I lashed out at respected members of the league, tarnishing my own reputation and that of my team.
As the investigation continued I began to see that there were indisputable links. I pushed this information to the league as a whole instead of sending it directly to HO in fear that HO might be an unwitting collaborator or worse in on it. I wanted the league to see what I had found and validate it, however it had the opposite effect due to my less than stellar reputation. It divided us further, and made me look even worse.
This investigation drove players away from the league, some of which I considered to be friends. Even Er and I were friends leading up to this. It ruined a lot of the relationships I had built, since I came into this league as Outlaw under ADwyer and played for a while with DeathOnReddit, etc. My actions also drove away almost all of the S2 Liberty class, it's good now to see some of those guys coming back.
It was never my intention to hurt the league or drive anyone away. The timeline for the investigation had to be sped up when Baller announced he was retiring and that Er would be considered for new league owner. I wish I spoke more openly with HO and we could have had a better forum for discussion about this. When I was accepted into HO, I had some great ideas that I wanted to implement but was bogged down by this investigation. When the investigation was finally complete and punishments had be doled out, I was just exhausted. Exhausted of the league and all of its drama. I spent way too many hours to even count on this investigation, to prove beyond any doubt that Er was pulling the strings. In the end, it still didn't convince everyone. To some, I'm still a villian.
After the investigation I ghosted the league for a while, and burned the one bridge I had built with slm, and I still feel guilt about that when I poke my head back into the league. Slm is great and supported me when no one else did, if he hadn't worked with me on this, we'd have a vastly different league today (if it would even still be around). And I repaid him by just disappearing without a word.
I'm glad the league is in a better spot now than it's ever been in before. I'm glad that I played a small role in getting it to this point. But I wish I had handled things differently and built more bridges instead of tearing them down. One day, I hope I can come back to the league and it be all things to me it was before this scandal.
Well that's my thoughts on all this, just straight from the heart free typing. Sorry about any typos or poor grammar.
(03-09-2020, 10:39 AM)steelsound Wrote:dammit, I always confuse the 2
Oddly enough I was also involved as I took over as GM of Arizona just before all this broke. I also called for Er's permaban, deleted his players, and traded for other Adam (see his post and guess how that went).
(03-09-2020, 09:15 PM)AdamS Wrote:Oddly enough I was also involved as I took over as GM of Arizona just before all this broke. I also called for Er's permaban, deleted his players, and traded for other Adam (see his post and guess how that went).
Really awesome to read through this. Learning history always interests me, whether it's good or bad. As a rookie, I heard ER and Noble references, but never quite got the full story. Some might disagree, but I think the league is in as good as place as it has ever been.
adam2552 if you're reading this, it's never too late to come back to the league. You certainly don't seem like the villain to me anyways.
(03-09-2020, 04:26 PM)adam2552 Wrote:It’s weird for me to read through all this again. Leading up to this scandal, I loved the league. I did weekly recaps, making graphics for stand out players from every game, and eventually went on to found the Liberty, creating their branding from scratch. I had built a good reputation for myself and worked extremely hard to build one of the best teams in the league from the ground up.
When I started to question things, my love for the league waned. I had worked so hard, recruiting, scouting, sim testing, etc. And it all seemed as though the reward for my hard work would never be realized. My search for answers started from the wrong place, it started from jealousy and anger. I lashed out at respected members of the league, tarnishing my own reputation and that of my team.
As the investigation continued I began to see that there were indisputable links. I pushed this information to the league as a whole instead of sending it directly to HO in fear that HO might be an unwitting collaborator or worse in on it. I wanted the league to see what I had found and validate it, however it had the opposite effect due to my less than stellar reputation. It divided us further, and made me look even worse.
This investigation drove players away from the league, some of which I considered to be friends. Even Er and I were friends leading up to this. It ruined a lot of the relationships I had built, since I came into this league as Outlaw under ADwyer and played for a while with DeathOnReddit, etc. My actions also drove away almost all of the S2 Liberty class, it's good now to see some of those guys coming back.
It was never my intention to hurt the league or drive anyone away. The timeline for the investigation had to be sped up when Baller announced he was retiring and that Er would be considered for new league owner. I wish I spoke more openly with HO and we could have had a better forum for discussion about this. When I was accepted into HO, I had some great ideas that I wanted to implement but was bogged down by this investigation. When the investigation was finally complete and punishments had be doled out, I was just exhausted. Exhausted of the league and all of its drama. I spent way too many hours to even count on this investigation, to prove beyond any doubt that Er was pulling the strings. In the end, it still didn't convince everyone. To some, I'm still a villian.
After the investigation I ghosted the league for a while, and burned the one bridge I had built with slm, and I still feel guilt about that when I poke my head back into the league. Slm is great and supported me when no one else did, if he hadn't worked with me on this, we'd have a vastly different league today (if it would even still be around). And I repaid him by just disappearing without a word.
I'm glad the league is in a better spot now than it's ever been in before. I'm glad that I played a small role in getting it to this point. But I wish I had handled things differently and built more bridges instead of tearing them down. One day, I hope I can come back to the league and it be all things to me it was before this scandal.
Well that's my thoughts on all this, just straight from the heart free typing. Sorry about any typos or poor grammar.