06-14-2022, 11:03 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-20-2022, 10:26 AM by allbetsonjames. Edited 1 time in total.)
Hello ISFL,
Most of you know me as Waldo, some may know me as Hunter, but I’m going to getting some stuff off of my chest.
First, as has been already shown, yes I did multi. I did it for many reasons, with one of the main ones being a reset to my reputation, with the other being discussed in the second paragraph of this article. I felt that I as a person had ruined perception of me beyond any way of repair that would make genuine change. Reading the comments of my ban post, and talking to some people during my ban I realized that I did make a mistake. There was an actual chance I could’ve changed the perception of me. I hate seeing that now knowing I made a stupid decision based off of emotions that were made in a way too hasty moment because I wanted my friends back. To anyone that this decision disappointed, I’m sorry.
Second, and this is the big one, when I first joined the PBE in 2018 I said I was Sixteen Years of Age. That was a lie. I turned 16 in 2021. In fact when I first joined the PBE I was a 13 year old, and the same with the NSFL/ISFL.
To be frank, I could provide a bunch of explanations, to which they might make sense to some people, they might not to others, but the truth about my multi lies right there. When you were a kid, did you ever play games online and get embarrassed that you’re younger than the people you’re playing with? That’s the main reason all of this started. As I told one of my friends, “I said I was three years older than I was, and the lie became so out of hand that it just fucking spiraled and became the life I built online. And the real, genuine reason I multi-ed was so that I could stop living that lie.”
That lie manifested itself in me. It became a part of me. It lived in me and I would constantly thought about how terrible it was and how I should come clean. There was a point, I think it was near Christmas or maybe NYE where I sat back and realized, I have told these people so little truths about my life, as in the first thing they learned about me was a lie, and I actually wrote a rough draft that I was gonna post on NYD (iirc) that was me admitting nearly everything admitted here (minus the multi).
I had the consequences of this realized soon into my career into sim leagues, as I have old messages to my IRL friends panicking after one of you guys found my personal twitter. I thought you guys would ban and hate me forever, and I would lose all these friends whom I was so close to just because I didn’t want to be treated like a child
That was a very naive 13 year old Waldo talking.
So now I’m here, standing in front of you all. I’m not asking you guys to accept my apology, I’m not asking you to completely believe everything I say here. All I ask from you guys is a fair shake. I multi-ed to restart, to become who I actually am. I don’t want to be the 19 year old High School Substitute teacher / Football Coach who’s 6’5 250, a completely fake identity crafted out of my insecurities. I just want to be a normal senior in high school.
I want you all to actually see me for who I am. If you can’t see that, that’s alright. I just am asking you to at least try. If you want to hate me, then hate me, I deserve it. But just try first, please.
With Love,
Waldo/Hunter
P.S. I would like to thank @TheCC for helping me write this, and giving me advice.
P.S.S. If you wish to have a private conversation with me about this, please DM me on discord at TheSecondWaldo#9415
Most of you know me as Waldo, some may know me as Hunter, but I’m going to getting some stuff off of my chest.
First, as has been already shown, yes I did multi. I did it for many reasons, with one of the main ones being a reset to my reputation, with the other being discussed in the second paragraph of this article. I felt that I as a person had ruined perception of me beyond any way of repair that would make genuine change. Reading the comments of my ban post, and talking to some people during my ban I realized that I did make a mistake. There was an actual chance I could’ve changed the perception of me. I hate seeing that now knowing I made a stupid decision based off of emotions that were made in a way too hasty moment because I wanted my friends back. To anyone that this decision disappointed, I’m sorry.
Second, and this is the big one, when I first joined the PBE in 2018 I said I was Sixteen Years of Age. That was a lie. I turned 16 in 2021. In fact when I first joined the PBE I was a 13 year old, and the same with the NSFL/ISFL.
To be frank, I could provide a bunch of explanations, to which they might make sense to some people, they might not to others, but the truth about my multi lies right there. When you were a kid, did you ever play games online and get embarrassed that you’re younger than the people you’re playing with? That’s the main reason all of this started. As I told one of my friends, “I said I was three years older than I was, and the lie became so out of hand that it just fucking spiraled and became the life I built online. And the real, genuine reason I multi-ed was so that I could stop living that lie.”
That lie manifested itself in me. It became a part of me. It lived in me and I would constantly thought about how terrible it was and how I should come clean. There was a point, I think it was near Christmas or maybe NYE where I sat back and realized, I have told these people so little truths about my life, as in the first thing they learned about me was a lie, and I actually wrote a rough draft that I was gonna post on NYD (iirc) that was me admitting nearly everything admitted here (minus the multi).
I had the consequences of this realized soon into my career into sim leagues, as I have old messages to my IRL friends panicking after one of you guys found my personal twitter. I thought you guys would ban and hate me forever, and I would lose all these friends whom I was so close to just because I didn’t want to be treated like a child
That was a very naive 13 year old Waldo talking.
So now I’m here, standing in front of you all. I’m not asking you guys to accept my apology, I’m not asking you to completely believe everything I say here. All I ask from you guys is a fair shake. I multi-ed to restart, to become who I actually am. I don’t want to be the 19 year old High School Substitute teacher / Football Coach who’s 6’5 250, a completely fake identity crafted out of my insecurities. I just want to be a normal senior in high school.
I want you all to actually see me for who I am. If you can’t see that, that’s alright. I just am asking you to at least try. If you want to hate me, then hate me, I deserve it. But just try first, please.
With Love,
Waldo/Hunter
P.S. I would like to thank @TheCC for helping me write this, and giving me advice.
P.S.S. If you wish to have a private conversation with me about this, please DM me on discord at TheSecondWaldo#9415
Called "...actually one of the worst people in sim leagues." by an "anonymous" reviewer.
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