I didn't expect to be back here after the last installment back in January. But I don't think anyone really expected any of what's happened since. I started this way back whenever I started it with the title this way because I was constantly exhausted from public transportation issues and just generally exhausted from the emotional strain of isolation in college. Well, I finished that college. I got my associate's. And I also got even more isolated thanks to some dude eating a bat in China.
I was proactive when the virus started to become a real threat in America. I think I chose to stay home the day before Rudy Gobert tested positive. It's been 175 days since then now and I'm pretty fucked up. I don't know if I've gained weight or lost weight, but I know I haven't been moving too much. As for my mental state, I usually try to track that through the music I listen to. I started out the year listening to Denzel Curry, angry but high-energy rap, and Jamie T, also a high-energy musician but his lyrics hide much of his depth and loneliness. So judging by that, I think that I was on the edge, but moving forward into good brain times. And in April, I was already listening to Radiohead on repeat, which is not a good sign for my mental health. I remember that most of July I just had "Kyoto" by Phoebe Bridgers on repeat. The past few days have seen that moved over to "A New England" by Billy Bragg. Let's just say, I'm slipping and it's not fun.
I can tell that this won't get a payout. It's much more of a personal update/journal than anything league related, but I just need to say something to anyone at this point. This league used to be a great place for me to just find people I can talk to. Back in the old days, I'd sit in the discord at night and just vent out my depression. I'm sure there were people who were annoyed by that, but it was helpful somewhat. I haven't been in the NSFL Discord in a long time. I left it after the whole "Soviet Yunyun" thing drove me to a point where I couldn't handle being in any sort of contact with anything that was causing my anxiety. I tried returning a couple of times, but I always do my dumb self-centered thing of searching my name in the chat to see what people had been saying since I left. It's dumb, stupid, and self-destructive, but I just want to know what's been said. And I see all the hate and I just want to leave again, even if it's from months ago.
I can't leave though. I know that I talked to @ADwyer87 about this a while back, but it just feels like we're both kinda trapped in this community. There's still too many people here that I do still care about. And I know that there's still a chance that there are people who join who are good. But I just don't understand anything anymore. There's new memes, too many memes, and I just don't fit in anymore. But I'm a vestige of the league's past. I'm a part of the furniture, the rocking chair in the corner that you use to hold your dirty laundry.
I remember that when TB and I decided to recreate, I made a commitment to being the greatest of all time at any cost. I've had too many players that were never good enough. Either getting the bare minimum with Tegan Atwell or fizzing out with Rose Jenkins. So I put my head down to be a max earner. And I think I've succeeded in that so far. But it's still incredibly disheartening to get passed on in drafts. To see all of your hard work just rendered meaningless because people don't want you. Period. I was already angry when I made Fukushuu. But after dropping two drafts in a row, despite my TPE numbers and proven ability to be a max earner in the PBE, I was past angry and just sad. What's worse than being openly hated is being privately hated and no one telling you why. I wrote an article that night basically about how much I hate myself and the only response was "That was well-written!"
I want to get better, I want to be better. But I never know how and even if I do, I never get a real opportunity. I thought I could redeem myself with another stint as GM with the Butchers, but the plan I'd left in place failed horribly. And when I once again had to step up to help that team, I didn't flinch and I did everything in my power to make sure things were right. But despite finally doing the right thing, finally leaving a team better than when I had entered it, I just got left with shit being thrown at me and an official league punishment that was essentially veiled retribution for questioning their authority. I wasn't against the punishment, I knew that they had to do something to me, but it was still humiliating to continue getting dragged around as the new scapegoat.
Before Rose Jenkins retired, I wrote a poem. When I first started as Butchers GM, I made sure to post the original by Carl Sandberg and told everyone that I hoped the team could live up to the beautiful city as described. A blue-collar city that doesn't give a fuck how beat down it is. A place defiant and hardened, unyielding to any kings and rulers. A town that works for itself. After the whole communist revolution thing and under the thinking that this would be my last player, I decided that I wanted to do something special. So, I spent a day reading and re-reading Carl Sandberg's "Chicago", trying to find ways to shape it to describe how I felt. Reading back what I wrote, my version less "defiant in the face of opposition" and more "defiant in spite of itself". You may not have read it, but I hope you go back.
But at the same time, the same issue remained. It was too soon, people still wanted my head. The comment section was filled with people saying it was plagiarism, wanting me to be punished again. So, I've made a commitment now to not respond to any comments on my posts.
I don't know what I'm doing here anymore. I'm not physically tired. I'm emotionally drained at this point in quarantine. Not only do I have a massive lack of energy due to the simple inertia of sitting around all day, but I also feel guilt for having such a lack of energy. Just, life sucks right now. And it doesn't look like it's getting any better for a long time. I've used quarantine to get up to 110+ pages on my script, I've just about finished writing my next album (although it'd be a while before I actually record it), and I've started learning how to draw. In fact, instead of snooping on my personal Twitter to see if I say anything about the NSFL, look at my drawing thread. I'm gonna work on today's piece after I'm done here. I'm up to 45 straight* days. Also, thanks to @YoungTB, I'm slowly getting into v-tubers. Maybe someday I can finally be a cute anime girl.
So, I think this is the end for now. I guess to sum it all up: I'm sad. Pretty damn depressed. But even worse is that it's not any different than how I've felt for the past three years. Apparently it's gotten common now for DM screenshots to get leaked in this league. People shit-talking others. But if you look at my screenshots, most of it is just how much I hate myself and how insecure I am about doing anything anymore. Why say any of this? Because I'm tired. People avoid sharing their darker feelings because it makes others uncomfortable. I don't care anymore. And I don't want advice either. Just sit there and listen to me so I can move on.
I can say how much I think this'll be the last time, but I don't think it will be. So I guess I'll see you some other time.
I was proactive when the virus started to become a real threat in America. I think I chose to stay home the day before Rudy Gobert tested positive. It's been 175 days since then now and I'm pretty fucked up. I don't know if I've gained weight or lost weight, but I know I haven't been moving too much. As for my mental state, I usually try to track that through the music I listen to. I started out the year listening to Denzel Curry, angry but high-energy rap, and Jamie T, also a high-energy musician but his lyrics hide much of his depth and loneliness. So judging by that, I think that I was on the edge, but moving forward into good brain times. And in April, I was already listening to Radiohead on repeat, which is not a good sign for my mental health. I remember that most of July I just had "Kyoto" by Phoebe Bridgers on repeat. The past few days have seen that moved over to "A New England" by Billy Bragg. Let's just say, I'm slipping and it's not fun.
I can tell that this won't get a payout. It's much more of a personal update/journal than anything league related, but I just need to say something to anyone at this point. This league used to be a great place for me to just find people I can talk to. Back in the old days, I'd sit in the discord at night and just vent out my depression. I'm sure there were people who were annoyed by that, but it was helpful somewhat. I haven't been in the NSFL Discord in a long time. I left it after the whole "Soviet Yunyun" thing drove me to a point where I couldn't handle being in any sort of contact with anything that was causing my anxiety. I tried returning a couple of times, but I always do my dumb self-centered thing of searching my name in the chat to see what people had been saying since I left. It's dumb, stupid, and self-destructive, but I just want to know what's been said. And I see all the hate and I just want to leave again, even if it's from months ago.
I can't leave though. I know that I talked to @ADwyer87 about this a while back, but it just feels like we're both kinda trapped in this community. There's still too many people here that I do still care about. And I know that there's still a chance that there are people who join who are good. But I just don't understand anything anymore. There's new memes, too many memes, and I just don't fit in anymore. But I'm a vestige of the league's past. I'm a part of the furniture, the rocking chair in the corner that you use to hold your dirty laundry.
I remember that when TB and I decided to recreate, I made a commitment to being the greatest of all time at any cost. I've had too many players that were never good enough. Either getting the bare minimum with Tegan Atwell or fizzing out with Rose Jenkins. So I put my head down to be a max earner. And I think I've succeeded in that so far. But it's still incredibly disheartening to get passed on in drafts. To see all of your hard work just rendered meaningless because people don't want you. Period. I was already angry when I made Fukushuu. But after dropping two drafts in a row, despite my TPE numbers and proven ability to be a max earner in the PBE, I was past angry and just sad. What's worse than being openly hated is being privately hated and no one telling you why. I wrote an article that night basically about how much I hate myself and the only response was "That was well-written!"
I want to get better, I want to be better. But I never know how and even if I do, I never get a real opportunity. I thought I could redeem myself with another stint as GM with the Butchers, but the plan I'd left in place failed horribly. And when I once again had to step up to help that team, I didn't flinch and I did everything in my power to make sure things were right. But despite finally doing the right thing, finally leaving a team better than when I had entered it, I just got left with shit being thrown at me and an official league punishment that was essentially veiled retribution for questioning their authority. I wasn't against the punishment, I knew that they had to do something to me, but it was still humiliating to continue getting dragged around as the new scapegoat.
Before Rose Jenkins retired, I wrote a poem. When I first started as Butchers GM, I made sure to post the original by Carl Sandberg and told everyone that I hoped the team could live up to the beautiful city as described. A blue-collar city that doesn't give a fuck how beat down it is. A place defiant and hardened, unyielding to any kings and rulers. A town that works for itself. After the whole communist revolution thing and under the thinking that this would be my last player, I decided that I wanted to do something special. So, I spent a day reading and re-reading Carl Sandberg's "Chicago", trying to find ways to shape it to describe how I felt. Reading back what I wrote, my version less "defiant in the face of opposition" and more "defiant in spite of itself". You may not have read it, but I hope you go back.
But at the same time, the same issue remained. It was too soon, people still wanted my head. The comment section was filled with people saying it was plagiarism, wanting me to be punished again. So, I've made a commitment now to not respond to any comments on my posts.
I don't know what I'm doing here anymore. I'm not physically tired. I'm emotionally drained at this point in quarantine. Not only do I have a massive lack of energy due to the simple inertia of sitting around all day, but I also feel guilt for having such a lack of energy. Just, life sucks right now. And it doesn't look like it's getting any better for a long time. I've used quarantine to get up to 110+ pages on my script, I've just about finished writing my next album (although it'd be a while before I actually record it), and I've started learning how to draw. In fact, instead of snooping on my personal Twitter to see if I say anything about the NSFL, look at my drawing thread. I'm gonna work on today's piece after I'm done here. I'm up to 45 straight* days. Also, thanks to @YoungTB, I'm slowly getting into v-tubers. Maybe someday I can finally be a cute anime girl.
So, I think this is the end for now. I guess to sum it all up: I'm sad. Pretty damn depressed. But even worse is that it's not any different than how I've felt for the past three years. Apparently it's gotten common now for DM screenshots to get leaked in this league. People shit-talking others. But if you look at my screenshots, most of it is just how much I hate myself and how insecure I am about doing anything anymore. Why say any of this? Because I'm tired. People avoid sharing their darker feelings because it makes others uncomfortable. I don't care anymore. And I don't want advice either. Just sit there and listen to me so I can move on.
I can say how much I think this'll be the last time, but I don't think it will be. So I guess I'll see you some other time.
[OPTION]S32: CAR: 0 \ RUS: 0 \ RUT: 0 \ CAT: 35 \ REC: 582 \ RET: 3
[OPTION]S33: CAR: 395 \ RUS: 1756 \ RUT: 21 \ CAT: 14 \ REC: 124 \ RET: 1
[OPTION]S34: CAR: 196 \ RUS: 831 \ RUT: 6 \ CAT: 35 \ REC: 582 \ RET: 3
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[OPTION]DSFL Playoff Stats
[OPTION]S31: DNQ
[OPTION]DSFL Playoff Stats
[OPTION]S31: DNQ
[OPTION]S32: CAR: 0 \ RUS: 0 \ RUT: 0 \ CAT: 7 \ REC: 67 \ RET: 0
[OPTION]S33: CAR: 47 \ RUS: 147 \ RUT: 0 \ CAT: 2 \ REC: 7 \ RET: 0
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[OPTION]NSFL Regular Season Stats
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[OPTION]NSFL Playoff Stats
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[OPTION]Trophy Case/Achievements:
[OPTION]S33: CAR: 47 \ RUS: 147 \ RUT: 0 \ CAT: 2 \ REC: 7 \ RET: 0
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[OPTION]NSFL Regular Season Stats
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[OPTION]NSFL Playoff Stats
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[OPTION]Trophy Case/Achievements:
[OPTION]S33 DSFL RBOTY
[OPTION]S33 DSFL MVP
[OPTION]Height: 6'2"
[OPTION]Weight: 195 lbs
[OPTION]Birthplace: Yakushima, Japan
[OPTION]Number: 23
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[OPTION]DSFL Regular Season Stats
[OPTION]S22: CAR: 0 \ RUS: 0 \ RUT: 0 \ CAT: 0 \ REC: 0 \ RET: 0 \ KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S23: CAR: 23 \ RUS: 89 \ RUT: 2 \ CAT: 14 \ REC: 112 \ RET: 0 \ KR: 569 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
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[OPTION]DSFL Playoff Stats
[OPTION]S22: CAR: 0 \ RUS: 0 \ RUT: 0 \ CAT: 0 \ REC: 0 \ RET: 0 \ KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S23: DNQ
[OPTION]===========================================
[OPTION]NSFL Regular Season Stats
[OPTION]S24: CAR: 192 \ RUS: 744 \ RUT: 6 \ CAT: 7 \ REC: 59 \ RET: 0 \ KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S25: CAR: 232 \ RUS: 860 \ RUT: 4 \ CAT: 19 \ REC: 140 \ RET: 2 \ KR: 977 \ PR: 44 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S26: CAR: 54 \ RUS: 213 \ RUT: 3 \ CAT: 72 \ REC: 818 \ RET: 8 \ KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S27: CAR: 179 \ RUS: 633 \ RUT: 4 \ CAT: 38 \ REC: 329 \ RET: 2 \ KR: 100 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
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[OPTION]NSFL Playoff Stats
[OPTION]S24: DNQ
[OPTION]S25: DNQ
[OPTION]S26: DNQ
[OPTION]S27: DNQ
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[OPTION]Trophy Case/Achievements:
[OPTION]Height: 6'1"
[OPTION]Weight: 180 lbs
[OPTION]Birthplace: Chicago, IL
[OPTION]Number: 13
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[OPTION]DSFL Regular Season Stats
[OPTION]S13: Comp: 213 // Yards: 2306 // Comp%: 55 // TD: 10 // INT: 14 // Rating: 66.3
[OPTION]S14: Comp: 231 // Yards: 2100 // Comp%: 58.5 // TD: 11 // INT: 10 // Rating: 71.7
[OPTION]S15: Comp: 180 // Yards: 1595 // Comp%: 54.9 // TD: 7 // INT: 14 // Rating: 57.4
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[OPTION]DSFL Playoff Stats
[OPTION]S13: Comp: 45 // Yards: 485 // Comp%: 57.7% // TD: 3 // INT: 2
[OPTION]S14: DNQ
[OPTION]S15: Comp: 11 // Yards: 130 // Comp%: 55% // TD: 1 // INT: 1
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[OPTION]NSFL Regular Season Stats
[OPTION]S16: Comp: 216 // Yards: 3106 // Comp%: 55.7% // TD: 18 // INT: 7 // Rating: 89.8
[OPTION]S17: Comp: 202 // Yards: 2267 // Comp%: 62.2% // TD: 18 // INT: 8 // Rating: 94
[OPTION]S18: Comp: 302 // Yards: 3652 // Comp%: 57% // TD: 18 // INT: 16 // Rating: 77
[OPTION]S19: Comp: 326 // Yards: 3716 // Comp%: 56.4% // TD: 11 // INT: 15 // Rating: 71.4
[OPTION]S20: Comp: 347 // Yards: 4275 // Comp%: 56.5% // TD: 28 // INT: 12 // Rating: 85.2
[OPTION]S21: Comp: 267 // Yards: 3242 // Comp%: 57.5% // TD: 24 // INT: 8 // Rating: 89.2
[OPTION]S22: Comp: 236 // Yards: 2864 // Comp%: 53% // TD: 8 // INT: 11 // Rating: 68.8
[OPTION]Career: Comp: 1896 // Yards: 23,122 // Comp%: 56.9% // TD: 125 // INT: 77
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[OPTION]NSFL Playoff Stats
[OPTION]S16: Comp: 21 // Yards: 231 // Comp%: 65.6% // TD: 3 // INT: 3 // Rating: 79
[OPTION]S17: Comp: 18 // Yards: 186 // Comp%: 48.6% // TD: 0 // INT: 1 // Rating: 52.3
[OPTION]S18: DNQ
[OPTION]S19: DNQ
[OPTION]S20: DNQ
[OPTION]S21: DNQ
[OPTION]S22: Comp: 16 // Yards: 184 // Comp%: 57.1% // TD: 1 // INT: 1 // Rating: 74.1
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[OPTION]Trophy Case/Achievements:
[OPTION]
[OPTION]Height: 5'9"
[OPTION]Weight: 185 lbs
[OPTION]Birthplace: Brookfield, IL
[OPTION]Number: 23
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[OPTION]DSFL Regular Season Stats
[OPTION]S4: Tackles: 50 \ PDs: 15 \ INTs: 4 \ DTDs: 1 \ KR: 493 \ PR: 418 \ RetTD: 1
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[OPTION]DSFL Playoff Stats
[OPTION]S4: DNQ
[OPTION]===========================================
[OPTION]NSFL Regular Season Stats
[OPTION]S5: Tackles: 60 \ Sacks: 2 \ PDs: 4 \ INTs: 1 \ DTDs: 0 \ KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S6: Tackles: 50 \ Sacks: 6 \ PDs: 5 \ INTs: 0 \ DTDs: 0 \ KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S7: Tackles: 92 \ Sacks: 0 \ PDs: 4 \ INTs: 2 \ DTDs: 0 \ Catches: 16 \ RecY: 171 \ RecTD: 3
[OPTION]S8: Catches: 71 \ RecY: 1239 \ RecTD: 6 \ YPC: 17.5 // KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S9: Catches: 70 \ RecY: 1168 \ RecTD: 3 \ YPC: 17.0 // KR: 711 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S10: Catches: 68 \ RecY: 1348 \ RecTD: 9 \ YPC: 19.8 // KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S11: Catches: 71 \ RecY: 1003 \ RecTD: 5 \ YPC: 14.1 // KR: 956 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S12: Catches: 47 \ RecY: 685 \ RecTD: 8 \ YPC: 14.6 // KR: 315 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S13: Catches: 53 \ RecY: 805 \ RecTD: 8 \ YPC: 15.2 // KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]Career (Defense): Tackles: 202 \ Sacks: 8 \ PDs: 13 \ INTs: 3 \ DTDs: 0
[OPTION]Career (Offense): Catches: 396 \ RecY: 6419 \ RecTD: 50
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[OPTION]NSFL Playoff Stats
[OPTION]S5: Tackles: 9 \ Sacks: 0 \ PDs: 0 \ INTs: 0 \ DTDs: 0 \ KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S6: Tackles: 8 \ Sacks: 1 \ PDs: 0 \ INTs: 0 \ DTDs: 0 \ KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S7: Tackles: 8 \ Sacks: 0 \ PDs: 0 \ INTs: 0 \ DTDs: 0 \ Catches: 2 \ RecY: 18 \ RecTD: 0
[OPTION]S8: Catches: 3 \ RecY: 40 \ RecTD: 0 \ YPC: 13.3 // KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S9: Catches: 3 \ RecY: 45 \ RecTD: 0 \ YPC: 15 // KR: 43 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S10: DNQ
[OPTION]S11: Catches: 4 \ RecY: 29 \ RecTD: 1 \ YPC: 7.2 // KR: 54 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S12: Catches: 11 \ RecY: 208 \ RecTD: 1 \ YPC: 18.9 // KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
[OPTION]S13: Catches: 6 \ RecY: 55 \ RecTD: 0 \ YPC: 9.2 // KR: 0 \ PR: 0 \ RetTD: 0
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[OPTION]Trophy Case/Achievements:
[OPTION]S5: Ultimus Trophy Winners
[OPTION]S6: Ultimus Trophy Winners
[OPTION]S12: Ultimus Trophy Winners
[OPTION]S13: Ultimus Trophy Winners
[OPTION]Height: 6'4"
[OPTION]Weight: 260 lbs
[OPTION]Birthplace: Chicago, IL
[OPTION]Number: 3
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[OPTION]Regular Season Stats
[OPTION]S1: CAR: 207 \ RUS: 995 \ RUT: 4 \ CAT: 19 \ REC: 148 \ RET: 1
[OPTION]S2: CAR: 191 \ RUS: 640 \ RUT: 2 \ CAT: 23 \ REC: 142 \ RET: 3
[OPTION]S3: CAR: 123 \ RUS: 359 \ RUT: 5 \ CAT: 46 \ REC: 387 \ RET: 0
[OPTION]S4: CAR: 123 \ RUS: 357 \ RUT: 6 \ CAT: 69 \ REC: 533 \ RET: 2
[OPTION]Career: CAR: 664 \ RUS: 2351 \ RUT: 17 \ CAT: 157 \ REC: 1210 \ RET: 6
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[OPTION]Playoff Stats
[OPTION]S1: CAR: 15 \ RUS: 59 \ RUT: 0 \ CAT: 2 \ REC: 11 \ RET: 0
[OPTION]S2: CAR: 13 \ RUS: 32 \ RUT: 0 \ CAT: 0 \ REC: 0 \ RET: 0
[OPTION]S3: CAR: 0 \ RUS: 0 \ RUT: 0 \ CAT: 6 \ REC: 19 \ RET: 0
[OPTION]S4: CAR: 6 \ RUS: 16 \ RUT: 0 \ CAT: 4 \ REC: 17 \ RET: 0
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[OPTION]Trophy Case/Achievements:
[OPTION]S4: Ultimus Trophy Winners
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[OPTION]Record:
[OPTION]NSFL S1: OC Otters: 9-5-0
[OPTION]NSFL S2: OC Otters: 8-6-0
[OPTION]EFL S1: Notre Dame University: 0-14-0
[OPTION]NSFL S3: Chicago Blues: 10-4-0
[OPTION]NSFL S4: Chicago Blues: 5-9-0
[OPTION]NSFL S5: Chicago Coyotes: 3-7-0
[OPTION]PBE S7: Milwaukee Swans: 50-50 (Lost World Series 2-3)
[OPTION]NSFL S17: Chicago Butchers: 8-5-0
[OPTION]NSFL S18: Chicago Butchers: 5-8-0
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[OPTION]Trophy Case/Achievements:
[OPTION]NSFL S1: Finished 2nd in league (2nd in conference)
[OPTION]NSFL S1: Solis Trophy Runners-Up
[OPTION]NSFL S1: GMs of the Year Runners-Up
[OPTION]NSFL S2: Founded DSFL Franchise, Chicago Blues
[OPTION]EFL S1: Joined Notre Dame University as Athletic Director
[OPTION]NSFL S2: Finished 3rd in league (2nd in conference)
[OPTION]NSFL S2: Solis Trophy Runners-Up
[OPTION]EFL S1: Resigned from Athletic Director position with Notre Dame
[OPTION]NSFL S3: Finished 1st in league (1st in conference)
[OPTION]NSFL S3: Noble Trophy Semifinals Runners-Up
[OPTION]NSFL S4: Finished 5th in league (3rd in conference)
[OPTION]NSFL S5: Joined DSFL Franchise, Kansas City Coyotes
[OPTION]NSFL S5: Moved DSFL Franchise, Kansas City Coyotes from Kansas City to Chicago, creating the Chicago Coyotes
[OPTION]NSFL S5: Retired from Leadership Positions in the NSFL
[OPTION]PBE S7: Co-Founded MiPBE Franchise Milwaukee Swans
[OPTION]PBE S7: Finished Runners-up in MiPBE World Series
[OPTION]PBE S8: Resigned from MiPBE team Milwaukee Swans before the start of the season
[OPTION]NSFL S17: Joined NSFL Franchise, Chicago Butchers
[OPTION]NSFL S19: Resigned from NSFL team Chicago Butchers before the start of the season
[OPTION]NSFL S21: Appointed Interim GM of Chicago Butchers
[OPTION]NSFL S21: Staged a violent military coup to gain control of Chicago Butchers
[OPTION]NSFL S21: Retired from all Leadership Positions
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Quote:"There is no such thing as a person who can call themselves truly not lonely. There are only those who choose to hide it."
-Chizuru Ichinose