To be honest, I thought I could probably recover from that punishment. But after witnessing calls for the ban hammer, I had to think for a second. How badly did I fuck up?
After careful consideration, I fucked up bad.
To be frank, I didn't consider a multitude of things when I did what I did. I was a blind fool that thought I could get away from it, and I never considered stopping. Shame on me.
Like a job, if you fuck up somewhere, others will hear about it elsewhere. What I effectively did was destroy the place then leave while telling the whole staff to fuck off. Now, I can never get a job.
I always wanted to leave this place in good standing. This was my family and I thought that I could leave on the wrong side of regression after wrapping up a contract and then go full steam ahead into a new career. Seems like a neat way to end a career in this league, right? But nope, I trashed the place (to stick with the metaphor).
Everyone probably has their own opinions of me now, most likely all bad. And I completely understand that. At this point, I feel like public enemy number one.
I effectively killed off my own career by deciding to do the things I did.
To all that I knew, thank you for being with me and guiding me to the best path I could possibly head down. To all the GMs over me, to the teammates that were hype during games, and hell, to the league that I helped to run, I thank you for being with me every step of the way.
And to the part of me that told me to do what I did?
Go fuck yourself.
faded#6048, Nicholas Ayers, #42.
After careful consideration, I fucked up bad.
To be frank, I didn't consider a multitude of things when I did what I did. I was a blind fool that thought I could get away from it, and I never considered stopping. Shame on me.
Like a job, if you fuck up somewhere, others will hear about it elsewhere. What I effectively did was destroy the place then leave while telling the whole staff to fuck off. Now, I can never get a job.
I always wanted to leave this place in good standing. This was my family and I thought that I could leave on the wrong side of regression after wrapping up a contract and then go full steam ahead into a new career. Seems like a neat way to end a career in this league, right? But nope, I trashed the place (to stick with the metaphor).
Everyone probably has their own opinions of me now, most likely all bad. And I completely understand that. At this point, I feel like public enemy number one.
I effectively killed off my own career by deciding to do the things I did.
To all that I knew, thank you for being with me and guiding me to the best path I could possibly head down. To all the GMs over me, to the teammates that were hype during games, and hell, to the league that I helped to run, I thank you for being with me every step of the way.
And to the part of me that told me to do what I did?
Go fuck yourself.
faded#6048, Nicholas Ayers, #42.
